Sunday, October 19, 2008

Forever (another emoish poem)

Snowflakes are waiting
yet to reach the ground for the last time

The stain of sorrow came with it
as the whiteness surrounded me

I could hear, very clearly,
your calling from behind me

Your warmth forms in an embrace
surrounding me telling me you're here

...forever

But everything has an end
just as the blizzard began it's storming

your body turned cold

... where was my forever?

You had told me once that you loved me
but waking up, I slipped on the ice

It was over.

My heart, no longer in pain.

My forever gone.

The snow bleached red.

Welcome, death.

... um... random emoish poem...

I live through my life in pain
tell me when it would go away

My story retold with tears
sorrow filling in these lines

Losing you is not what frightens me,
rather the pain within you that scares me

same to the factor of death
it's merely the pain that I fear

One gunshot, one stab
all of pain

Why can't life end peacefully
and why can I not die without causing others sorrow

for it's not the pain that interests me
it's the mere thought of death itself

so why can't I just end my life now?
while my passion of death is left yet to fade

let me lift in your arms of the angel
let me fly with you away

if god had a reason to put me on the Earth
it was you, you to put out my fire


Kill me now.

Friday, October 3, 2008

I found you...don't run away again... please?

Haha, I feel like a brat, a spoiled kid, and it's all because of you. Now that I'm writing about it, I'm day dreaming about it. The 30 seconds in which you held me, with so much love I felt as if you were mine, all mine, like that one girl I hate so much, never existed. I wanna thank a couple of people for helping me get it, but I'm too happy right now to care.

My tall freak, was mine again for a mere 30 sec - 1 min. I tell you I hate you, but how can I, when one movement as little as it may be, attracts me to you. At that time it was only me and you, like the rest of the world never existed, I couldn't help but slip from reality. Your embrace was more than I imagined I could handle. I pained me, stabbed me when you pulled away. But then again, your warmness was still there.

I was crying, more often than usual. Truthfully speaking, not that long ago, I cried, 7 days in a row. Not long hours and hours of crying, but enough to pain me for days causing me to cry again the next day and everytime I talked to you. I wondered if it was just talking to you, and then you told me you sent your computer to fix meaning you wouldn't be online.

I didn't cry that day.

But you made me cry again today. You know what emos are don't you? They've called you one numerous of times. And I am one now, you know that too. Emos; emotional, self-confined, idiots, that hate life. Right, first you cared, you screamed everytime I said "life sucks", so much for caring now huh?

I cried today.

Big deal, you didn't care, hah until my ex came up to me. You hugged me then, because you were told by him to. Don't you know? I feel vulnerable whenever I'm around you, like a hopeless loser, the one I am inside, the one that I hide from the rest of the world. And at that moment, when you took me in an embrace, I felt safe again. From that moment, the rest of the world didn't matter anymore. Though I was still in tears, it didn't matter, I had your shield around me again. I wanted it to be forever, but I ask for too much.

Thank-you

The best time I ever had in a long time. It's all because of you.

I love you.