I found you...don't run away again... please?

Haha, I feel like a brat, a spoiled kid, and it's all because of you. Now that I'm writing about it, I'm day dreaming about it. The 30 seconds in which you held me, with so much love I felt as if you were mine, all mine, like that one girl I hate so much, never existed. I wanna thank a couple of people for helping me get it, but I'm too happy right now to care.

My tall freak, was mine again for a mere 30 sec - 1 min. I tell you I hate you, but how can I, when one movement as little as it may be, attracts me to you. At that time it was only me and you, like the rest of the world never existed, I couldn't help but slip from reality. Your embrace was more than I imagined I could handle. I pained me, stabbed me when you pulled away. But then again, your warmness was still there.

I was crying, more often than usual. Truthfully speaking, not that long ago, I cried, 7 days in a row. Not long hours and hours of crying, but enough to pain me for days causing me to cry again the next day and everytime I talked to you. I wondered if it was just talking to you, and then you told me you sent your computer to fix meaning you wouldn't be online.

I didn't cry that day.

But you made me cry again today. You know what emos are don't you? They've called you one numerous of times. And I am one now, you know that too. Emos; emotional, self-confined, idiots, that hate life. Right, first you cared, you screamed everytime I said "life sucks", so much for caring now huh?

I cried today.

Big deal, you didn't care, hah until my ex came up to me. You hugged me then, because you were told by him to. Don't you know? I feel vulnerable whenever I'm around you, like a hopeless loser, the one I am inside, the one that I hide from the rest of the world. And at that moment, when you took me in an embrace, I felt safe again. From that moment, the rest of the world didn't matter anymore. Though I was still in tears, it didn't matter, I had your shield around me again. I wanted it to be forever, but I ask for too much.

Thank-you

The best time I ever had in a long time. It's all because of you.

I love you.