Is it that hard??

This weekend, I've fallen deeply in love with this guy... needless to say, he's 3 years older than me. And I have no idea what to do with myself. I mean , it would be easy if I went to the same school as him. But worse than ever, I'm in a different level of school than him. Middle school and High school... it's hopeless. But still, I was hoping. Hoping that maybe he would put our age difference aside.... and maybe...maybe give us a chance.


So I was thinking... maybe... maybe there's a chance.


I know, I'm delusional.

And so... I confronted one of the people I always confront about my cousin's friend (which is the dude I like.) My cousin's boyfriend (the one I confronted) was like: "Three years... as in grade 8-11 right? That's ... not so good because one is middle school the other is high school."

With that... I gave up...





However I couldn't stop thinking about him.






I wanna try, whatever it takes.

But it's impossible.




He'll continue running through my mind until it's all over.