Confusion

Life is full of useless ness
so tell me now, why wont you let me let go

If its not worth living
then whats wrong with wanting to leave?

Out of all people, you tell me you care
Yet all I wish, is for my feelings you share

You've been to blind to see
have u really cared for me??

I told you I love you
Now I'll tell you it was true

Was is the past,
now im confused

Do i like you now?
Or have i liked you before

Tell me what the truth is
And yet, something as simple as that,
you cant

How many people now
have told me you loved me?

And yet, me, your best friend
cant even find that out

Am i worth your time here?
If I was, won't you tell me to my face?

Won't you tell me that there's someone
that actually cares for me in the world
cuz you don't

If you read this
I'd be surprised

Im confused now
and at least you know why

If you feel the same
wont you tell me?

Instead of hiding at away from me
causing all this pain

My heart is heavy now
I wanna say good bye

But everytime I see you
I can't

I can't turn my back to you
to tell you that I'm leaving this world
without you

And now tell me
do you truly care?

To you,
it's "some girl's" feelings

To me,
it's everything

Do I like you?
I HAVE NO IDEA
NOW TELL ME URSELF

DO I?

I'm telling myself now,
that you would read it,

that you would take in mind
how I feel

But it's all lies
I know you well enough
You dont needa tell me that for me to know

But hey, we're still friends rite
that's how its meant to be and nothing more