For my dear Humzi, (my ex)
You don't know how much I've been through. You don't know hoe much I loved you. You don't know how much I had to give up for you.
I didn't want a boyfriend because I was still scared from my last break up years ago. I didn't want to go through the pain again. But I decided you were different. I gave up my heart for you.
You shattered it. You don't understand because you wouldn't have needed to trust me with your heart because I wouldn't have ever broken it the way you broke mine. I gave you my trust, you ruined it.
It's all true, I sacrificed everything for you.
- I gave you my first kiss
- I nearly lost all my friends and their trust
- I lost you as my best friend
- I lost my trust in you
- I trusted you not to hurt me
- My haert still aches when I think about you
- I gave you my love and dedicated my life to you.
I don't want to fight with you anymore as I think back of the pain you left me in. But because I loved you, and only because I wanted you to be happy, I didn't show my pain to you. I held back my tears which were already forming the second I saw you. I laughed, I smiled, I lied. I acted happy though I wasn't happy at all besides, I felt like I'd might as well be dead.
What happened to all those things you told me? I know things changed but no matter where you look, I'm the one that loves you and cares about you the most. You could've at least let me help you instead of throwing me away in the corner like that.
Everytime you told me you loved me, I told you I loved you more. You didn't believe me but now, everyone can see the truth.
And I only have one more thing to tell you. I love you and always will.
-Bonnie
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