Can I have a refund?
My form of "moving on" took place already but really, the pain is all still there.
I know I moved on because :
- I mostly think and dream about Johir. (Except when I'm thinking about the past of course)
- I used to doubt it, but now its clear, I really did develop feelings for my bf.
- In some ways, I think a lot about the previous break up but 60% og me thinks that I shouldn't regret it because I'm with a very caring guy now that loves me a lot.
- I'm thankful for my boyfriend. I want to be with him. When I'm missing someone, I'm missing my boyfriend not my ex.
I don't think I moved on because:
- I care a lot about my ex, especially because he has a heart problem and barely has enough time left to enjoy life.
- I loved / love (I'm not sure which) my ex a lot more than how much I like my boyfriend now.
- I'm always making my boyfriend feel bad because I talk about my ex a lot.
- The pain when I think about the past, the emptiness inside of me. I don't think any of you would understand unless you truely did love someone as much as I loved him.
So really, I don't know what is going on. But there's more to the story. I'll tell all that later.
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